Wednesday, 20 June 2018

what I've been... #7

"hey babe, no no no I swear it's not what you think it is...I can make it up to you"

After breaking up with my blog almost 2 months ago, I'm back and (hopefully) more faithful than ever! It felt like being forcefully ripped away from a child but when compulsory education exams call, you've got to answer.

I thought it was only right to write one of these mammoth update posts. A lot has happened since the last time I wrote one of these in April.

what i've been doing-
Sitting my final a-level exams. And now they're all done, 9 exams later! It feels so strange to have finally gotten them done, it has been something I've been anticipating since the start of sixth form, more so in the few months before they actually started. A brief break down of how they went: Spanish went quite well, History went okay too and then Biology was absolutely shambolic and I can firmly say that I despise OCR. Every single day was just a cycle of revision and I was honestly so over it lol. 

Onto more exciting things...what have I been doing? Honestly it's just been revision (maybe next months "what I've been" will be much more exhilarating) Oh, I decided that I will take a gap year next year, pretty big life decision I know. Mostly because I forgot to apply for Student Finance and I just don't want to go to my firm nor my insurance choice either. I feel like my university application process was incredibly rushed last year, all for the sake of my Oxford application which needed to be sent off in the second week of October, so I had no time to actually go on open days- instead I applied to each place very blindly. I mean, I didn't even know what exact course I wanted to do until mid-September! So if you're approaching the university application process, the best piece of advice I'd give to you is: do not rush it. And if it doesn't go to plan, don't sweat it...there's always next year. 

You might have seen on my twitter but you know how people say that certain things that follow you around are a sign or an omen? I'VE BEEN SEEING "THE KISS" by Gustav Klimt everywhere. It's mostly in just fleeting moments but it's honestly the strangest thing ever. I first saw it in Vienna and since April I've been seeing it on the bus, in people's blog posts, on tumblr, twitter etc. I don't know what it could mean but it's so strange. I see it at least once a day now. If it's a sign of potential love interest then I shall accept it with open arms lol.

what i've been reading/watching-
Textbooks and revision guides. I have had no time to read on my own accord but I'm so excited to finally be able to do so now. I'm planning on hitting up a few people for book recommendations for the summer. I have a list of TV shows to watch as long as my arm (and I have *very* long limbs) so I'm planning on getting through those. La Casa de Papel is at the top of that list after multiple close occasions of me almost caving in and watching it but thankfully I restrained myself as last year I ended up using my study leave to watch OITNB and it did not go down well.

After coming home yesterday and having no idea what to do with myself, I decided to watch a Moroccan film called "Much Loved" which is about 4 prostitutes in Marrakech and it follows how they are treated by a, admittedly developing albeit very traditional, Moroccan society. It also explored the lives of LGBTQ+ individuals as well which is unheard of in such a society. In one scene, a woman and her transexual friend spoke about Spain and illegally immigrating there and it was so moving as he began imagining "being able to be yourself and express yourself without an Arab man looking at you and giving you trouble just for being who you are." It really solidified the struggle of women and LGBTQ+ people in North African countries where Islam and conservative societal ideals are still rife and homosexuality is still illegal. I would definitely recommend it to you however there are a few triggering scenes

what i've been listening to-
My own tears and my mum telling me "it's okay, there's always next year" 

yeah those exams broke me. 

too soon?

what i want-
Everything that has polka dots on it. I sound 5. I really love that print. So much so I bought two polka dot dresses on a whim. Ooooops.

I've weirdly gotten into the world of makeup lately, after 4 months of looking absolutely horrendous I feel like it's finally time to invest in my appearance...doesn't sound conceited at all. Fenty beauty's gloss bomb is calling my name, as well as a few bits from Nars (it's going to go down at duty free/sephora) Glossier have brought out a new cloud paint but I'm slightly hesitant because I've already found an alternate blush, which is actually a deep red lipstick no one uses, and it's pretty good. I've also been loving bronzer, it takes me from looking sallow to alive. Winner. 

what i've been anticipating-
A gap year (but I'm still not 100% sure, this is the life of a serially indecisive person) In terms of precise gap year plans, I have zero. I'm hoping to use the end of summer and most of September to visit university open days and then possibly get my application done by October. Thankfully I already had the experience of writing a personal statement last year so it won't be as daunting this year. I'm hoping I can just change my last paragraph of it to speak about gap year plans and perhaps put a bigger emphasis on the Spanish part of my potential degree course because as we've come to see, I bloody LOVE that language and I didn't give it much air-time in my predominantly history based personal statement last year. That would be so much more convenient and stress-free than having to write a completely new one. 

Whilst university is being applied for, I'll be working (woo) to save up some money. I'm not planning on embarking on a typical 'gap yah' travel expedition and thankfully Katie has shown me that it's not always the sole path to go down. What I really want to do is travel around Morocco, discovering new parts of my homeland and also improving my French and Arabic (but French especially because my speaking is sub-par...very embarrassing) There are so many cities I want to discover, Morocco is such a diverse country with different landscapes from heavy snow and skiing in Ifrane to the Sahara Desert in the South. Visiting small Amazigh ("berber") villages is on the top of my list. I would also like to do smaller trips too, Lisbon has been on my radar for the last couple of months now and also some central European places too. My gravitation towards Spain is already known on here so I will not bore you with details. 


I'm going to Madrid in less than 24 hours which seems crazy because I've been awaiting this trip for months now. As I booked it for a day after my exams, it always seemed so far away and out of reach with me having to undergo the hurdles of exams to finally reach it and now I have done just that! I'm so ready for all the tapas, the sun on my skin, long evenings and narrow cobbled streets. I bought a disposable camera yesterday (something about these £5 cameras basically signify that summer is here) so I can't wait to use that tomorrow as well as in Venice, Marrakech and Casablanca. I have a whole brain dump about my excitement for summer travelling here!

I think that's it! I've updated you guys on everything, I'm sure this wasn't the most exciting post to read ha, but it's a reflection of my life for the time I've been gone. Meh.

I'll be back with a blog post from Brighton and of course other travel posts from this summer and some other lifestyle content.

What have you been up to? Any summer plans? Leave them below!
Dalal

*there are some rape and sexual harassment scenes in the film. 

10 comments:

  1. I'm glad you're not rushing into university! They really expect you to apply so early, how can you know what you want to study?!
    I first applied for Archaeology... then transferred to Psychology, English, History and now I'm doing Political Science. But it's much easier to transfer between majors in Canada -- you guys in the UK have to pick your program right from day one.
    ... Sorry, that probably doesn't ease your nerves at all but I think a gap year will really help you! And a long summer of travelling and doing other things you want to do, that will really help you figure out stuff too.

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    1. 100% agreed, it's made out to seem as if it's now or never! I met a person who was here from the US studying English Lit at Kings College for a semester, she told me how she had done Biology and even Computer Science before she decided to transfer to English Lit. I wish we had that flexibility here...

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  2. Congratulations on finishing your A-levels!! Have an incredible time in Madrid too. A gap year is a fab idea, and plus I'll be on one too so we can hopefully meet up a bit more!! Can't wait to keep up with all your adventures and all your blog posting. So strange about you seeing the kiss everywhere, I wonder what it could mean?? I always interpret things like that as a sign from the universe.. Hope you enjoy your new found freedom Dalal, it's v well deserved!! Lots of love xoxo
    www.lexiealexandra.com

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    1. Thank you. A gap year duo, yes we should definitely meet up more often! I definitely do see it as a sign from the universe, especially as I saw it multiple times in Madrid...very strange but cool nonetheless.

      Dalal

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  3. YES YES YES I am so excited for you to watch La Casa de Papel!!! It'll be so jokes if you're just like meh, but I seriously doubt it! Congrats on finishing A-levels too!!! I kind of forgot what it felt like tbh. And taking a gap year too! (Lmao at 'gap yah') - sounds like such a great decision :-) Have an AMAZING summer b! <3 <3 <3 <3

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    1. You're one of the main reasons I'm planning on watching it, I have a few other friends who are pushing me on too! I doubt I'll hate it or find it anti-climactic, if worst comes to worse it's in Spanish so even if the plot's a bit rubbish (doubt it) at least it'll be in a language I love. Thank you!

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  4. I'm so happy for you that your a levels are done and dusted, its literally the best feeling putting your pen down on that last exam! Also, I want everything with polka dots on it as well - I'm obsessed!

    Lucy | Forever September

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    1. It feels euphoric to say the least, I remember looking at the clock and thinking '10 minutes until you're free.' It truly felt like a high school musical moment (minus the jumping about and singing) Gimme everything with polka dots on!

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  5. Yay for finishing exams Dalal! Hope you have an amazing trip!

    Sophie | www.sophiesspot.co.uk

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    1. Such an amazing feeling! Thank you, Sophie :)

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