Wednesday, 20 December 2017

my corner


My room has always been something I've been disconnected to, I seem to surpass every typical teen stereotype of your room being your haven and barely spend any time there. I think the fact that I share it with my sister and the wifi doesn't connect that strongly there (very first world problem) explain that. I realised that the reason I'm not too keen on my room, a place that should be my sanctuary, is because there is nothing of 'mine' in there. Nothing is me or representative of me, apart from an overspilling bookshelf and stacks of textbook and lever-arch folders but even they have moved themselves to the living room window sill.

Getting a disposable camera changed that completely. I had originally gotten it as a way to document my summer as my phone is so unreliable that I couldn't bare the possibility of not being able to take a photo because of full storage or my phone just shutting down and resetting itself (this happened thrice in August) But eventually, these developed photos held so much sentimental value to me I decided to put them in a place that I believed they deserved to be: on top of my bed where I'll always see them. These pictures are ones of my sister and I, my mum, my grandma, my cousins, dear friends (some from secondary school and some from sixth form) and pictures of beautiful landscapes. It truly makes me smile when I look at them and think of the backstories to each of these photos, especially that one at the bottom with my friend Jose and I smiling despite our near-death, anxiety fuelled river Thames experience a few minutes beforehand. I will always treasure these photos.

I've also stuck up some post cards. Unsurprisingly, both are from Oxford- the city that I had, unfortunately, fallen in love with. The sunset one was bought when I was there for a week long summer school and I decided to write myself a letter encompassing the immense feelings of pure joy I felt that week, exploring the old buildings, botanical gardens and trying out an ice cream flavour each day in the height of British summer. All with a good friend of 6 years. The other post-card is from Katie who I seem to mention many times on this blog but in a time where I feel crazy loneliness, she's one of the only people I really speak to and can relate to. It's got a few colleges and the Radcliffe camera on it, thankfully it doesn't have a photo of the college I'd applied to as that would have been a lovely kick in the face ;) It's a really lovely postcard and the message she sent on it is equally as good. I also have another post-card from Katie, it was one of the first ones she sent to me alongside her letters. I liked the print and thought I'd stick it up.

James Dean. Who would I be without this weird idol I have? And seeing as this part of my wall is meant to show me, this is the perfect addition. I bought a print of the Rebel Without A Cause movie poster because a) it's my favourite film b) I love the colours on it c) James Dean is on it and d) the line "they both came from good families!" I think it truly captures attitudes in the mid 1950's.

I have a few weird things up too, like an iron on patch about good karma which came in a Betty Box. I don't really have anything I'm willing to put it on, my backpack is a maroon colour so that would clash like crazy. There's also a paint swatch because this exact shade of blue is what I envision when I'm anxious and my heart rate escalates and I need to calm myself down. Then a piece of wrapping paper that I received in a letter which I really liked the print of and also a 'Free Palestine' sticker which I got from a protest.

Last is this totally shitty mock timetable. I try to avoid looking at it, hence why it's so high up. I think I'm in a good place where I'm very happy my subjects (even though at times I question everything ahem history coursework) so there are certain exams I have that I'm slightly looking forward to. With every exam month, I always write myself a message on the timetable because even though it sounds stupid, when the exams roll around and I'm constantly checking what I have when I'm also seeing "you can do it! prove them wrong! aim high!" scrawled on there too. Please send me all the good vibes for these January mocks.

Et voila. I hope you liked the little insight into my photo wall! I'm definitely looking to add to it in the future so if we ever meet up and I happen to have a disposable camera, you will have the pleasure ;) of being up on my wall. okay that sounds creepy now

Do you have a photo wall? 
-Dalal

6 comments:

  1. questioning everything re history coursework was MY LIFE last year, I can't even explain how many times I broke down to my teacher about it. I looked at the photo in this post and was like "oo I recognise that, and that...and that–oh wait, I think I sent them" haha, but I'm glad they've made a special feature. I love that you've correlated your anxiety with a colour, I might give that ago and see which colour I pick. This post has really inspired me to document 'my corner' so maybe I'll give that a go (mine also has 'weird things' i.e. mini propaganda posters of all the Soviet leaders, not because I like them but because soviet russian history holds a special place in my heart...) and your message about me was the sweetest <3

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    1. I'm looking forward to inevitably following your footsteps. haha everything you send is so pretty, it deserves a place up on there! Please do recreate this, I'd love to see- I'm very fond of propaganda posters, so quirky and also very interesting to see the messages being promoted.

      Dalal

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  2. I love seeing snippets of other peoples rooms, this is so sweet. As a photography student, I totally get the sentimental value of a printed photograph and disposable camera's are such a good way of doing this!

    Lucy | Forever September

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    1. Me too! Likewise, printed photos are so valuable (I just wish it didn't cost so much to develop)

      Dalal

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  3. I love your corner and all the stories behind it. Also I love that you've written little notes on your mock timetable, it just seems like such a good idea and I wish I thought to do that. Also I agree disposable pictures are the best, me and my friends during sixth form would always have disposables and who ever the camera belonged to would get first pic and then we'd pass along the disposable envelope and we'd all take the other photos we wanted. I'm not sure if that's why I love disposables so much but they are some of the best types of photos. Sending you all the luck and well wishes for your mocks :)x
    constantlylibby.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Ah thanks Libby! I have 3 days until my mocks and after a few days in Vienna, I am now feeling slightly unprepared. That is such a GOOD idea, I would definitely do that (but I'm not really that close with my year group ha) I can only imagine how weird yet sentimental the photos would be.

      Thank you <3

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